This book kicked me in the feels and just when I honestly thought I couldn’t take it anymore it kicked me some more. I have a love-hate relationship with books like this. Namely because the characters are so beautifully written and it brings back memories of my life and the pain they feel becomes my own.
This book was unbelievably well-written. It had the kind of writing style that was a little dense and at times, boring to get through, but when it started to pick up HOT DAMN DID IT EVER! It was touching and full of so much emotion without ever being cheesy or pretentious.
For those of you that don’t know, I have my own battles with OCD and depression. To make a long, depressing story short, I have been battling depression since recovering from illness and my OCD manifested from that. I’ve read so many books where the main characters are able to simply “turn it off” when it gets inconvenient and that is not even remotely possible. It’s a daily, hourly, by-the-minute struggle and I related to this on such a personal level, I (and I admit this admitting the greatest level of embarrassment) couldn’t help but get teary eyed.
Another tidbit about me is that I have gone through losing someone very close to me. I know that pain inside and out. Every single one of these characters was an absolute mess. They all made bad decisions and were dealing with real consequences of those decisions. Who is actually able to keep it together when you’re struggling with losing someone you love? Who is 18 and always making sound decisions? They frustrated me at times, but that’s what real people do to me anyhow, so really, I think that’s pretty accurate.
Honestly, being able to have someone around who understands the grief and the pain of losing someone is the best thing that can help you heal. I’ve been there, done that. This reminded me We can hurt together by Sia. If you haven’t heard this song, go listen to it. Like now. It’s beautiful and describes just about everything I needed to get through it all. This booked reminded me a lot of what I felt listening to this song for the first time and yet another kick in the gut.